Just watched "Love & Other Drugs" with Jake Gyllenhaal & Anne Hathaway. Movie made me think and also caused me to ponder a couple questions. I was almost and probably still will, put those questions on my dudesnude profile. I'm not sure why, but maybe it will give some insight to others as to what i'm all about, since I remain to be a mystery all the time.
Sometimes I have quite the number of thoughts that roll thru my head and I keep them all to myself. I don't talk to anyone about those thoughts and I don't or haven't posted them here because I feel this blog was supposed to have more of a dirty direction. But maybe this blog can have both. *shrug*
Anyway, so there's one scene where Anne Hathaway's character Maggie asks Jake's character Jamie "What 4 good things can you say about yourself?" So....here's mine:
I'm driven
I'm thoughtful
I'm generous
I'm sweet
On the flip side, because I always consider another side or the opposites, here are the 4 bad things I can say about myself. There's always 2 sides to everything:
I'm lazy
I'm selfish
I'm cautious - perhaps overly
I'm douchy
between those 4 things good & bad, making a total of 8 for those that can't add, I feel a little complex. Those things are what make me the good & bad person I am.
I'm driven in certain things but i'm lazy in much. I'm lazy when it comes to building friendships & relationships, or maybe that's cautious.
I'm sweet but only to others who are deserving of it, which is mostly anyone until proven guilty then I get douchy to ....'idiots'.
Sometimes Grindr really annoys me. Or maybe it's just the people on grindr. So, I tend to get douchy with people who are thoughtless, don't think about anyone else but themselves, their own agendas. Like, when they pop on, don't have a pic, but message me and ask for 'more pics'. I'm like, are you serious? You don't even have a pic, I do and you want more? Click! It's not just Grindr that happens though but you get my point. I just wish some people would have some etiquette sometimes, but that's a wish that will never get fulfilled so I don't spend too much time on that thought. Ha!
I recently bought this dildo last week and I've been sticking it up my poop chute everyday since I've got it. It's big. I literally haven't used a dildo in 10 years. Last time I used one, I ended up bleeding all the time from use, so I stopped. I figured it wasn't good for me and it just made me more loose and I didn't want to be loose to the guys who fucked my butthole. But, the reason I got it recently was to train my hole to take cock a little better. It's just been hurting so much to get fucked these days and I don't want it to hurt as bad. I want to be able to have endurance. And I'm not going to get into meth or poppers to have that endurance. I think I can have it naturally, so, we'll see how it works out. Alboline works really well. It's water proof too, so can't wait till I have a boy over and we fuck in the shower cuz it will work really well in there too.
I'm a little over due for some bareback fucking. I fucked a 25 yr old boy a couple Sundays ago. Bred his hole and he bred mine and i haven't seen him since but I'm sure I will. He spent the night, so I should be better about seeing him. Just been watching a lot of bareback fucking vids on jack4jack.com. I'm digging it for now. I'll be back in the habit before you know it.
I'm going to try to post more on here. I need to have an outlet I suppose and still remain somewhat anonymous.
